Get rid of the Wings!

A few days ago my friend Nicole found out that she was accepted to a  study abroad program in Costa Rica. We were all on stand by all day waiting to find out. And then at 6pm there was an explosion of excitement. She got it!!!!! Celebration night out was in order. We headed out to Buffalo Wild Wings. I figured that since it was a special occasion I could have a few little boneless wings. I'm allowed to have chicken. I convinced myself that it didn't matter.
We sat down and ordered. Waters all around...we're college students...its cheaper that way. Caribbean Jerk. Thats my favorite. I split the order with Julia, and that made it even more acceptable. I would only be eating 4 little wings. The waitress brought our orders and handed them all out. My mouth watered. It had been about 8 days since I had anything truly off my diet.
Sitting in front of me was the whole reason I started this weight loss in the first place. I hated those wings. They mocked me from the little basket. "you already made the mistake." "you ordered us" "you're gonna have to start all over tomorrow."  "whatever."
"Emily, whats the matter?" my friend Kalie asked from across the table.
"I can't eat these."
"Are you thinking about how bad they are for you?" Nicole asked.
I nodded then gazed back up at the soccer game playing on the big screen in the corner. From the corner of my eye I saw Nicole quickly get rid of the wings. They were no longer in front of me to remind me that i would so quickly be willing to give up everything that I had worked for.
"Those are not worth it!" I said it to the other girls at the table, but really i was talking to the wings. "You're not worth everything I've achieved. You're not worth my health. You're not worth the disappointment I would have in myself for eating you."
I still had to pay for them. I was happy to do so. I'm happy to pay for something I'm not going to eat. If that means a huge victory for me. I'd pay anything for that. Thankfully it only cost me about $4...but its the idea that counts.