Let me start by introducing myself. My name is Emily and I'm a college student. I'm a Christian and I grew up in Mexico. That's it. I want to start with a story.
When I was around 8 or 9 years old I was spending the night at my friend Briana's house. We had been eating a lot of junk food for our slumber party, and had just been lounging around watching movies. It was a very typical sleepover. Then Briana made a comment. "Oh man I ate too much. I always eat too much. I'm getting fat and ugly."
As a good Christian girl I said. "You're not fat or ugly. You're just the way God made you. You and I are just big bones. He made us that way."
Then Briana said something that has stuck in the back of my mind ever since. "My mom says that God did makes us, but we need to take care of his creation.By getting fat, I'm not taking care of His creation."
WOWZEEE!! She was so right. I'd like to inform you now that since that day I chose to eat healthy and exercise and do everything to take care of God's precious child and unique creation. But those profound words were heard, but not taken to heart. I was young. I don't blame myself for those years, my life wasn't about that serious stuff yet. I'm 20 years old now and my age does not excuse me any longer. Actually it seems to condemn me.
I've grown larger pretty much every year of my life after the getting taller and developing was over with. I had a year when I trained for a triathlon with my parents and did lose a little weight, but not enough to start me on a journey to being honestly healthy. I now weigh in at about 348lbs. My body is screaming at me to get rid of all this extra baggage. I'm practically carrying a whole other person with me everywhere I go.
This is where it ends. This is where the extra person gets off and I get to move on with my life. I'm holding myself back. I can't go on planes without making everyone else in my row uncomfortable. I'm afraid of heights because I'm afraid that I'm too heavy for whatever is holding me up. I don't go clothes shopping with friends because I would have to go to the plus size stuff and it's all old ladyish. Ultimately I want to go and study abroad in Lithuania, but I cannot take my extra person on this trip. I want to be able to explore. I want to fly and not have to pay for the extra seat next to me. I want the pictures of me in those places to be framed and not feel ashamed.
So, my journey begins. I'm going to get a good support system to help me out. I'm going to be accountable to my workout buddy and my meal supervisor. I'm going to live a full life and start taking care of God's special creation. ME.
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