Real Girls Aren't Perfect. Perfect Girls Aren't Real.

Now more and more I'm realizing how unimportant it is that I'm perfect. I don't have to be thin or healthy. I don't have to be wonderful at everything I do. I don't have to be perfect. Everyone's vision of what "perfect" looks like is different. I want to be striving to be the best version of me. Christ is perfect. Christ is perfect in me. It doesn't matter what the world thinks perfect should be, because they'll see Christs perfection through me. What does that look like? I don't know...but I think that it's a truth that I need to live by.

As for my weight loss journey...
I've been watching some Biggest Loser and there's this guy who said that his struggle was night time. It was when he would go astray with his food habits. He wouldn't get enough sleep and that added to the stresses in life. So he was suddenly sinking into a whole and downward cycle. So then during the day when he would work out and eat healthy, it was worth nothing because he was ruining it every night. I struggle with this. I have healthy food, but if I just keep eating it then its no longer healthy for me. I also don't exactly sleep a lot when I should. So these are things that I need to change.

Its so hard to be making all these changes and keep up with everything else that's around me. I don't in any way want to stop striving to lose weight, but because this is the last month of the semester, it isn't going to be a little bit lower on my priority list. God gives me my every breath and my every day. I'm going to be focusing on my studies and work. I need to up my GPA, so this is really where my priorities need to lie. So I'm still going to be working out, but I wont be making as much of my own food. It really does consume a lot of my time. The library and I are goign to be working on our relationship. We'll be spending a lot of time together for the next few weeks. So if you can find me...thats where I'll probably be.